Thinking about the past, there are many question, hurt, shame, blame, and many other pain that i had bear.
Learning from Dr.Kalervo, past is a treasure that enriched someone life. As a treasure, it can be cherished and accepted both bad and good. Therefore, all the pain that i had suffered and bear will be a memory that i have to dare to take and accept and move on.
Life has only two button, stop, or forward. it doesnt have rewind, pause, or copy.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
Jesus The Liar
recently i am struggling with this question in my life, who is Jesus? Does he real?
i know it seems like i am playing with a religious question, a question that nobody asked. why? who needs religion today? I mean religion that belief in the existence of God. in the time where science has reveal many question of life, in the time when psychology has answering human problem, in the time where faith wont give money, who cares about religion? still the question of who is Jesus raised in my mind.
there are plenty of Books, Good books that telling Jesus from many different perspective and i dont want to comment or quote or trying to be scholastic upon this question of Jesus. Rather i want to reflect upon who is Jesus personally.
As the modern society questioning the divinity of Jesus, it bring doubt upon his integrity and honesty. Does Jesus a liar? Does he lied claiming that He is the son of God? Does he is a "false" prophet that somehow possess supernatural ability in himself? Does he actually just a charismatic person that somehow being pictured as God ? For some all of this question will be answered with yes, Jesus is a liar...he is no God, he is only a good man living in good condition of time
However, trying not to be apologetical i cant deny that he has become more real each day for me, i mean by real i become interested on him day by day. well, some people might claim that i just playing with my emotion but for me there are a simple passion to know this man that people claim as a liar. Being exposed to Him everyday bring curiousity upon who he is actually.
The only book that give a good information about Him is the Holy Bible, there are doubts upon how the Bible even existed but whehter unfortunate or not it is hard to find other information about Him in other more reliable sources. Anyway, Bible in critical view has been unreliable enought (at least in scholar circle) why bother believing on other controversies information?
As i glance and learn from this Gospel, The Gospel in New Testament i found a person that has been giving his life for humanity. A person that are there being with those that dying, rejected, puked, and expelled from society. Understanding little bit about Ancient Jewish Culture, Jesus has been one person that will stand and reveal what is the real good man is all about.
He sat with tax collector, people that considered as traitor during that time. He touch those leper, the most rejected people on that time, and he even mingle with prostitute, a sinner by accepting her annointment in a rich man house.
History might shown that with His name a war has been struck during the middle ages but never trough His example...
With this example we have seen in history, millions of people that died being inspired because of his love and compassion for humanity, it is trough Jesus example many people trough generation has stand for unfairness, injustice, and willing to care for those who are weak and oppressed. This liar that claim Himself as God has inspired million and million of people in every generation to amplify love and compassion for other human being.
it is true there are many other good man in this world that has inspired many other people but it take a supernatural being to maintain his influence for centuries and keep growing. There are no other God that has being mocked, parodied, questioned, doubted, claimed as a liar than Jesus. Why put too much care on someone that not significant? someoene that is a liar?
therefore for me, even if he is a liar there are more truth that i can see trough him. there are more example that i can follow rather than the lied he had made.
It takes Good man to change the world, but it takes God to maintain change for centuries.
He is the inspiration of one of my hero, Gandhi. He is the power that move human soul and spirit to love and care for other.
therefore, this liar that has stand for centuries will still be hero for millions of men across the Globe and for me God, Lord, and Savior
i know it seems like i am playing with a religious question, a question that nobody asked. why? who needs religion today? I mean religion that belief in the existence of God. in the time where science has reveal many question of life, in the time when psychology has answering human problem, in the time where faith wont give money, who cares about religion? still the question of who is Jesus raised in my mind.
there are plenty of Books, Good books that telling Jesus from many different perspective and i dont want to comment or quote or trying to be scholastic upon this question of Jesus. Rather i want to reflect upon who is Jesus personally.
As the modern society questioning the divinity of Jesus, it bring doubt upon his integrity and honesty. Does Jesus a liar? Does he lied claiming that He is the son of God? Does he is a "false" prophet that somehow possess supernatural ability in himself? Does he actually just a charismatic person that somehow being pictured as God ? For some all of this question will be answered with yes, Jesus is a liar...he is no God, he is only a good man living in good condition of time
However, trying not to be apologetical i cant deny that he has become more real each day for me, i mean by real i become interested on him day by day. well, some people might claim that i just playing with my emotion but for me there are a simple passion to know this man that people claim as a liar. Being exposed to Him everyday bring curiousity upon who he is actually.
The only book that give a good information about Him is the Holy Bible, there are doubts upon how the Bible even existed but whehter unfortunate or not it is hard to find other information about Him in other more reliable sources. Anyway, Bible in critical view has been unreliable enought (at least in scholar circle) why bother believing on other controversies information?
As i glance and learn from this Gospel, The Gospel in New Testament i found a person that has been giving his life for humanity. A person that are there being with those that dying, rejected, puked, and expelled from society. Understanding little bit about Ancient Jewish Culture, Jesus has been one person that will stand and reveal what is the real good man is all about.
He sat with tax collector, people that considered as traitor during that time. He touch those leper, the most rejected people on that time, and he even mingle with prostitute, a sinner by accepting her annointment in a rich man house.
History might shown that with His name a war has been struck during the middle ages but never trough His example...
With this example we have seen in history, millions of people that died being inspired because of his love and compassion for humanity, it is trough Jesus example many people trough generation has stand for unfairness, injustice, and willing to care for those who are weak and oppressed. This liar that claim Himself as God has inspired million and million of people in every generation to amplify love and compassion for other human being.
it is true there are many other good man in this world that has inspired many other people but it take a supernatural being to maintain his influence for centuries and keep growing. There are no other God that has being mocked, parodied, questioned, doubted, claimed as a liar than Jesus. Why put too much care on someone that not significant? someoene that is a liar?
therefore for me, even if he is a liar there are more truth that i can see trough him. there are more example that i can follow rather than the lied he had made.
It takes Good man to change the world, but it takes God to maintain change for centuries.
He is the inspiration of one of my hero, Gandhi. He is the power that move human soul and spirit to love and care for other.
therefore, this liar that has stand for centuries will still be hero for millions of men across the Globe and for me God, Lord, and Savior
Question on Evil
As i walk today, i encounter several people that i know had done something that i know not nice to other. They seems to be okay and all things are fine. all of this experience making me wandering, questioning and think what should i do against evil?
my personality has been those kind that easy to give judgement to other, it seems God has "cursed" me with this gift to being critical when evil prevail. i couldnt stand to see people that hurt other. Its always been within me to tell the truth and trough the extend that many people felt bad after encountering their fault being noticed and condemned.
but as time goes by and still the question rise, what should i do against evil? I realize this is what i can do.
I realize that i will never beat evil. often i think evil is an action. but now, i think evil is a matter of decision. people has to decide whehter to harm or to love someone. Therefore, i will never win against evil. Every people has their right to decide to do things according to their heart. some however, does have an bad intention toward other, while the rest just thinking about themselves.
then one thing that i realize i can do, that i will never stand down agaist evil. though it might consume me on the process, what God expect from us is to stand firm agaisnt it. Let Superman, Batman, Spiderman, and Hulk deal with overcoming evil but as an ordinary person our duty is to not stand down and to take decision to be evil too.
It is also our duty to save people from those who are suffer because of evil, it is our call to protect them from evil, to redeem them from the evil itself. there always be evil trough all generations and there will be people that will suffer because of their actions. Some people might has the gift to beat them, but i believe God give some other the power and compassion for saving those that fall into evil.
i will never able to make those who do evil to turn and be good, its God duty. Only God can overcome and beat evil. however, i believe that on the same time God call us to save those who are become the victim of evil, those who are suffer because of evil.
Jesus prayer now become clearer to me "but deliver us from the evil one" He never ask us to beat the evil, but to be delivered from it. For us that has decide to follow this man named Jesus, His prayers should be our prayer too, and to fulfil this prayer God need us to deliver those who has been struck by evil.
my personality has been those kind that easy to give judgement to other, it seems God has "cursed" me with this gift to being critical when evil prevail. i couldnt stand to see people that hurt other. Its always been within me to tell the truth and trough the extend that many people felt bad after encountering their fault being noticed and condemned.
but as time goes by and still the question rise, what should i do against evil? I realize this is what i can do.
I realize that i will never beat evil. often i think evil is an action. but now, i think evil is a matter of decision. people has to decide whehter to harm or to love someone. Therefore, i will never win against evil. Every people has their right to decide to do things according to their heart. some however, does have an bad intention toward other, while the rest just thinking about themselves.
then one thing that i realize i can do, that i will never stand down agaist evil. though it might consume me on the process, what God expect from us is to stand firm agaisnt it. Let Superman, Batman, Spiderman, and Hulk deal with overcoming evil but as an ordinary person our duty is to not stand down and to take decision to be evil too.
It is also our duty to save people from those who are suffer because of evil, it is our call to protect them from evil, to redeem them from the evil itself. there always be evil trough all generations and there will be people that will suffer because of their actions. Some people might has the gift to beat them, but i believe God give some other the power and compassion for saving those that fall into evil.
i will never able to make those who do evil to turn and be good, its God duty. Only God can overcome and beat evil. however, i believe that on the same time God call us to save those who are become the victim of evil, those who are suffer because of evil.
Jesus prayer now become clearer to me "but deliver us from the evil one" He never ask us to beat the evil, but to be delivered from it. For us that has decide to follow this man named Jesus, His prayers should be our prayer too, and to fulfil this prayer God need us to deliver those who has been struck by evil.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
First Day, First Reflection
As i glaze to the pictures of many of my old friend today, i was amazed with the change that happen to many of them. some just got married, the other just finish their college, other just started to work, and the rest having a baby. its a wonderful things, precious, and i put a little cherish upon all these beauty that my friend receive in their life. however as the mouse keep clicking and the web keep moving i realize that the picture of life is not beautiful all the time. some of them got married because they are too healthy that embryo had emerge from the little tummy of the girl, some other must struggle, broke up, being cheated, or cheating someone in relationship, the other struggling with academic life, thinking that future is about staying forever in college, while the rest wandering around looking for job here and there...
i often wonder and questioning my life....question that nobody ask....what i see in life?
as i walk on the street of Bangkok few days ago, the same question rise in my mind. There were little beggar sitting on the street waiting for a simple heart willing to give at least 1 bath for the food for today while somehow a beautiful car pass glittering in the awesome of its color, brand new.The driver might be the owneri dont know, but im just imagining is the person ever think about this life and about this little boy that being torchered by the heat of the sun, begging for just one box of khao today?
i visited Patpong a week ago and encounter a conversation with one of the a go go girl on the bar. She is pretty, georgeous, and i just cannot stop my heart from crying to hear her story.For me, she is more than beautiful to be one of those model on ad. At the same time as i glance to the thai newspaper, magazine and i encounter the same beauty in the different kind of life filled with glamour and popularity.
Therefore for me, life is color...
Life is a color full of with dark and but also covered with bright and cheerful picture...
I cant see too bright color because its making me blind, but i cant see to dark color because it will making me a psycho....therefore still another question nobody asked raise..how can is see it?
I remember my Girlfried gave me this beautiful song by a Filipino singing group. the title of the song is Rainbow....and i believe to see life like seeing Rainbow, where the color of the sun being dispersed by the little rain that fall...
I dont want to preach and i might putting my philosophy into what not written there but i believe Rainbow is one of God wonderful gift for us to see life..
Im not good in physics too, but from what i know bright light is actually the combination of all color and it needs a prism to dispere the color to be visible. Being bright, shining in a glittering life will never make me see life but we know too that darkness is the condition where color is not exist and without color there is no life i cant see darkness too for there are no color - no life.
As life is color - i want to cherish it - to enjoy the beauty of it - and thanking God that he create color.
Imagining if all things are black and white - i think life would be different from what i know now -
i often wonder and questioning my life....question that nobody ask....what i see in life?
as i walk on the street of Bangkok few days ago, the same question rise in my mind. There were little beggar sitting on the street waiting for a simple heart willing to give at least 1 bath for the food for today while somehow a beautiful car pass glittering in the awesome of its color, brand new.The driver might be the owneri dont know, but im just imagining is the person ever think about this life and about this little boy that being torchered by the heat of the sun, begging for just one box of khao today?
i visited Patpong a week ago and encounter a conversation with one of the a go go girl on the bar. She is pretty, georgeous, and i just cannot stop my heart from crying to hear her story.For me, she is more than beautiful to be one of those model on ad. At the same time as i glance to the thai newspaper, magazine and i encounter the same beauty in the different kind of life filled with glamour and popularity.
Therefore for me, life is color...
Life is a color full of with dark and but also covered with bright and cheerful picture...
I cant see too bright color because its making me blind, but i cant see to dark color because it will making me a psycho....therefore still another question nobody asked raise..how can is see it?
I remember my Girlfried gave me this beautiful song by a Filipino singing group. the title of the song is Rainbow....and i believe to see life like seeing Rainbow, where the color of the sun being dispersed by the little rain that fall...
I dont want to preach and i might putting my philosophy into what not written there but i believe Rainbow is one of God wonderful gift for us to see life..
Im not good in physics too, but from what i know bright light is actually the combination of all color and it needs a prism to dispere the color to be visible. Being bright, shining in a glittering life will never make me see life but we know too that darkness is the condition where color is not exist and without color there is no life i cant see darkness too for there are no color - no life.
As life is color - i want to cherish it - to enjoy the beauty of it - and thanking God that he create color.
Imagining if all things are black and white - i think life would be different from what i know now -
Saturday, April 21, 2007
A Single Dot of A Long Line
Hey, I just start to write something there are nothing special though. I just want to improve my writing skill by reflecting things that i feel and i see in life.
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