Deep Thinking

I Believe Bangkok is really the place where my mind can naturally think and asking question about life. In the place where freedom is relative you cant help to start questioning several ideas about things...i will start to write it down....

Memories is a great wake up call, it helps you to see that in the past there are happy moments no matter how small they might look like. We grow each and every day and that's part of us being a human. We must grow.

Pornography Chapter 1

This one of the most toughest topic i ever can write. I affect me, and i know it affect thousands2 of man and woman out there. People talk and discuss regarding this topic. Politician, Theologian, Sociologist, Psychologist, to McDonald Cashier, Students, and all strata of people at least once heard the name or exposed to pornography.
What so amazing about it?
However personally speaking, i want to make my own reflection. Its not trying to define or giving a new insight about what it is and how it affect people. Its just a simple honesty on how pornography has affected my own life.

Pornography is simply fantasy, half truth - half reality. To begin with, Sex is a gift of the Divine for us to be joined in an intimate relationship with our most beloved one. It was always secured in the barrier called Marriage.
Pornography basically take away the sacred band and release the ultimate power of sex in total "freedom" and allow people to fantasize and explore the ultimate pleasure of sex without boundary. However, the trick of pornography its only stimulate certain aspect of the senses. Its never perfect and that is where the "half" part comes in. Pornography never fulfilling the satisfaction of sex ever. Whether by audio-visual stimulation such as porn movie, simple visual stimulation such as porn picture, to more advance form of pornography such as - virtual sex or interactive girl. There is never a complete fulfillment of pornography. The person who consume this material need to find their own way to compensate with the stimulation that they receive. Not like in husband - wife sexual relationship where the stimuli is their partner, and the channel of fulfillment is sexual intercourse, pornography left the consumer without any partner and person to satisfy their personal excitement.

Pornography also about power, where you can exercise your entire freedom of fantasy and control of your sexual urges. Often pictured in the movie, the girl is always submitting and seems to enjoy sex even into the extreme. Sex is the only aspect that seems to matter in the life of a woman.

You wont find any porn movie that will depict that the woman refuse to having the intercourse with the man because she is just so tired from working the whole day in the office. You wont find any porn movie that will depict an interrupted intercourse because of the crying baby in the other room, you wont find any porn movie that will depict that sometimes sex doesn't happen simply because of the morning fight between the couple due to the burnt pants on the top of the ironing board or the unthrown garbage bin. Absolutely no!
In pornography sex seems to show the unrealistic view of life and the fantasy that will never have any end. People will feel satisfied and somehow relieve by watching porn movie because its release them for their own personal tension and expectation that might no be fulfilled in real life. After all, every human need channel to release. Some by eating, some by smoking, some by using drugs, and some other by watching pornography.

The woman will always be pretty and good looking in which not every man will ever get that kind of woman in their life. Another fantasy that often lure many man and also woman into the unrealistic world.

Now there is one bad side of unrealistic things in life, it is simply addictive. Fantasy is boundless and as you notice the growth of modern pornography into more "hardcore" its worrying since it seems we will never win against the power of fantasy. I am just hoping that rape, unwanted pregnancy, and other criminal sex offenses will not also grow into more "hardcore" way.

This is the sad fact yet this is the truth. However there is always hope when we look for an answer not from within but from the Divine once again. He who has give sex to begin with knows the right and true solution for all of us who are struggling with it.

We are living in the world where morality seems to be relative. It based on what people see and often on what people wants. The reason i think this way is simply because i am looking at the life that i live today. Where it is hard, and very hard to stay simple and living into the value that you uphold everyday. When you are struggling with certain aspect of life that requires a high measurement of ethical consideration other people just do it on a regular basis without feeling any guilt at all. Sometimes you asked yourselves whether you are too fanatic with what you believe, or the world out there is just too immoral.
But then comes the judgment, when you say people out there is just too sinful they will judge as "Pharisees" "Fanatic" "Unloving" etc, etc.
So that is the reason why i believe morality is relative, since no one has the exact measurement of it.
But is it so? Different people has different measurement of morality, different religion has different measurement of morality? Is that true?
Somehow it is difficult to think likewise because deep inside our soul i believe we all know the reality of right and wrong.
Or it is simply because the ultimate judge - GOD is silent about all of this? That will lead us into a new discussion by itself.
Its just hard to be human and on the same time was constricted to a law made by an invisible being. That is why many are looking for option to leave this invisible being away, and live out life the way they like because its just doesnt make any sense.
Small example:
A: I feel guilty of eating meat this morning.
B: Who told you that it is wrong to eat meat?
A: God!
B: Where is he? Does he ever told you personally? Does he ever punish you right away from eating meat?

Sighhhhhh...........

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The Answer for Pain

The most tiring job to do in this world is waiting. Waiting does not cost a lot of energy (most of the times), it often happen in most comforting way (in air con room, with TV and Stereo Set), but yet a lot of people hate to wait.

I am still waiting for that happy day when waiting is over, when pain is over, when heartache is over, and behold my King on His throne. My Lord come now for i am weary and heavy laden.