Just a simple thought that was crossed my mind during little walk from cafeteria....
i think the true victory that make christian different from other victory is when we realizing our weakness and knowing that the only victory is Jesus Christ at calvary.
i was thinking about this as i've been struggling with my own temptation in life. the problem is, once you can overcome your struggling, whatever it is, we have tendency of thinking that it is our victory- since we are the one that been struggling with. therefore i believe the only true victory in life - is when Jesus Christ finally says - its over
now how about when people has suceeded winning their life over certain thing in life such as - drugs, or porn or whatever?
this is my though, that all those "victory" - is a true proove that Jesus has overcome it at Calvary - we have achieve the result of that victory in our life - we overcome certain things in life - therefore, the glory should be belong to him.
The issue by this concept is more to those that still struggling and seems hopeless without any bright light, should they dont receive grace from God? I couldnt allow my faith to be based on that concept
Through out the bible it seems that God more concern about the effort rather than the result but dont be misuderstood that God ALWAYS has concept like this. there are few times that God being pragmatic looking for the result from man
however, often bible heroes are placed on the place that their heart is more important than their action
the simplest example of this is David, a king that fall into sin of adultery. God did kill his son but the funny thing is the other son from that adulterous relationship later become king.
Through out the life of David, he did several "fatal" mistake and considering him today David will be considered as loser - but the bible told us that God himself called him to be "man of my own heart"
a simple lesson, especially for us that struggling with many issue in life dont ever give up - turn our eyes upon Jesus even at the lowest level of life, dont ever turn our heart, our sight, our believe even during the time when we feel that we dont deserve to be loved by God or even to be accepted by Him.
God proven by the bible seems to care more about what we will try to do to be victorious rather than the victory itself because that victory never belong to us anyway - it belongs to Jesus
he cares upon what is your sight during those times - what inside our heart when we are falling - will we cry for help and said "Lord, im falling help me!" or "its okay Lord, i dont need your help, i can climb this road by myself!"

Who i like to see in Heaven?

Well, this might seems to be too "adventist" thinking about Heaven
however, i was listening to a song "When Jesus comes" again by and "Adventist" singer Heritage Singers....
but i cant hold my tear to imagine whom i would like to see in Heaven...
yeah sure....Jesus...i want to see him....He is the reason why i'm in Heaven
Family? Yes! Yes...i really want to see them all in heaven...to know that i can live with them too..
however, they are those that placed as special part in my life...
and as i imagining heaven i really pray that they will be in heaven too....
(as i wrote this, i try to keep my tears from falling)
Ti my friend that i met in AIDS hospital at Lopburi, a man in his 30 that waiting his time to rest, i really think about him and missing him. I dont know what happened to him now but let it be with my prayer....
Pam, a a go go girl in Patpong that i met few months ago, i want to keep in touch with her but sometimes what i read discouraging me, im still praying for her and really hope that she will be there too. She is 24 years old, and still working in Patpong
Saipin, and two of her friends that i met during our visit to Nam Yuen...three little girls, very friendly, funny, and kind. Im really scared that they will fall into wrong proffesion since they are vulnerable to that situation, may they be there in heaven too
Sakda, Mukthapa, and two other Hmong warrior i met in Loei, four little boy, cheerful and innocent - i pray we can play soccer again in heaven...
as i look at the world and how cruel it is, my prayer will be "how long O God till you come?" since i really pray for that....
the last, and i think the one that i really care, is my Girlfriend....yes...i've been blessed with a girl that really strenghten me to move on with life, to know there are forgiveness even for a person like me, to know that God still loves me and giving this hope of eternal life, i want to walk to heaven with her. To see her smile there and to know that we are here because of Jesus