The Beauty of Children

Have you ever ask the question on why God must create children? Why a person just grow up instantly in a matter of days to reach adulthood? Why we have to spent soo many years being a children?

I dont know the exact answer but one thing i know for sure that i found from all children. Innocence.

That is something that nobody cant take away from them.

I was at the MRT this evening, exhausted from a whole day work. Stand beside me was a family with two small daughter. Both of them were obviously tired, but the younger one are too tired to stand on the overcrowd train. Unfortunately she couldnt be carried by the daddy because there are totally no space at all. Therefore, what can she do is only crying and crying. I just cannot stand to see children cry, there is just this mystical feeling when i see they cry especially when they suffer defenseless.

But then when the crowd become less, she immediately jump to her father and sleep at his shoulder. That moment was so touching, that i felt i need to write it here despite the fact i am so sleepy.

I always pray that i hope God can do the same thing to me. When im tired, when im sleepy, he will carry me and let me sleep at His shoulder.

That is why, Children will be one of my greatest book that i will never finish to learn something new from it. They are the treasure, the beauty, that nothing will ever can substitute.

The Existence of God

As i stand in the train, my mind glaze trough the question that people nowadays often ask (quite the contrary with i usually do)
Does God exist?

Now i dont want to answer that question apologetically or not but i just want to share the way i think about God...

Modern science had claimed again and again that they can prove the non-existence of God.

Trough cloning, and many other cellular studies has revealed that we are in control of our own humanity. We dont need God.

This is the first point that i think most of us know already. The beauty of CONTROL

Now we are in control of our own.

We dont need God to reproduce - we have cloning now - why pray?

We dont need God to heal us from physical or mental illness - advanced medical science can solve most illness that we have - Why pray?

we dont need God to decide whether our next generation will be boys or girl - fertilization technology can do it for us - why we have to give it to God?

We dont need God to predict the weather - we have advanced satellite system and meteorological technology - farmer and sailor doesnt need to pray anymore for rain or good weather

We dont need God to cultivate the land - agricultural techonology can handle that - why ask God for fertile land

We dont need God to decide a life of a person - mostly in terminally ill cases -

We dont need God to solve any of our problem - whatever is that - Advanced Science and Technology can handle that!

So that's it?

Is it conclusive to say that God doesnt exist simply because now we have the ability to control things that in the past seems to be in the hand of a Divine Creature?

For me, i dont see it that way.

It is more like the time when i start to learn how to use bycycle. At first my father will show me how to ride it, then he will let me try it.
Slowly he will guide me from the back and hold me while i am trying to drive it.
as times goes by, soon or later i wont need my father guidance to hold the bycycle and i can run it anywhere i go. Even later on i can ride it without having to handle the grip.

However, admitelly speaking there will be time when i fall, and slip from the bycycle. When i hurt myself from falling. There is the time when i will go to my father and he will gives me his biggest hug and comfort for the fall. Does he know i will fall someday? Yes he does! So why he doesnt keep holding the bike wherever i go? Then what is the point of using bycycle? You cant ride the bycycle properly, or cruising along the road.

The same application work for all the science and technology that we have today. We have reach the limit where God is not holding our bycycle anymore. We know how ride it.
However, as know the control of this bycycle is completely within us, are we able to guarantee that this bycycle wont fall? Unfortunately again and again it is proven that we dont. Despite the sucessful achievement of technology today, there are black area where our own technology start to eat us up with more damage. Simple example: the discovery of Penicillin. There are more microbes that generating resistance to it nowadays. Why? Let the Pharmacologist, and Microbiologist answer that. I dont know the answer.
As this control of ourselves and earth seems to be more on our side probably we need to be humble to aknowledge the fact that sometimes there are aspect in our life that we still need God to control, we need to let go, we need to say "i dont know" and start to change that thought with "i believe"
I believe, that for every discovery that we do today, whether it is in Biological Science, or Psychology, Astronomy, Philosophy, Neuroscience, Sociology, Archaelogy, Anthropology, Medicine, Physics, Chemistry, or even Theology. That discovery is just another alphabet in the loong, thick, universal dissertation about God. We just reveal a glimpse of mystery upon the existence of this being that we actually dont really know and understand.
Our knowledge, our discovery, is just a small millimetric dot we put to picture the picture that probably as big as this earth.
So my answer today is more like an appeal. We should not be too fast to conclude that God does not exist simply because it seems we can answer so many question and mystery of our life and universe. We should be more patient, more open into the fact that there are thousands more question that has not been answered yet.
This is my personal faith, that i believe at the end of everything all of our discovery of life and universe will lead to one answer - GOD when it will be? i dont think it will be any soon
Therefore, i will leave a large room of my faith more towards God since i know there are many more questions that we havent answered yet.

Train of Thought

Its been more than a month that i left this blog alone....

As for now, life seems to set on a new track, new rail and as the time goes by let me see where this train will bring me.

Life for me is like an MRT, that goes along trough the rail. Sometimes it needs to shift to another rail, or sometimes it needs to slow down, and sometimes it needs to stop on certain station to pick up a new passenger. For me passenger can be considered as experience. On each station, an MRT will pick different number of passenger. But this is the unique thing about MRT. After, each station the number of the passenger inside will not be the same. Some will alight, some will stay, and new person will aboard the MRT.

How Good Can Sex Be?

This blog might sound uncomfortable with many people but yet i've been asked this question again and again...
Indeed the question sound so vulgar and what kind of question is that?
Having said that, let us look at this question from the whole perspective of this blog...
We are living in the world where people look for pleasure and like it or not sex is one of the most wonderful pleasure someone can find...
Sex Industry, for whatever way you would like to say it has been one of the most successful business out there...
Prostistution, Pornography, and any other way of people try to fulfil their sexual gratification
Looking at pornography, i've been one of those who are hooked and tempted....so this come from someone who look at it in a very closer way.
My analysis goes like this, pornography work in several way. As we know our brain receive data and store it deep in our brain. For some times, pornography stimulates our visual receptor and hearing receptor. Both senses send the signal to our brain and the brain interpret it as something pleasurable.
Lets accept it, human are created as a sexual being and it will come naturally that this sexual stimulating senses will be deciphered in that way.
Therefore in sexual addiction, what we are hooked is simply that stimulation, because it linked to nice feeling in our brain.
Well, im not an M.D just someone who wants to have one (hehehe) but as far as my experience and studies go this is what i understand.
As you notice, that's why pornography industry keep following the flow of consumer. What i mean by that? Sex will alway need fulfilment, that is absolutely true. Sex at it self was made to bring pleasure, and as the reproductive way of human being. However, created with so complex brain, imagination takes place during this stimulation time.
S& M, Lolita, Bondage, Squirting, Orgies, Gang bang, Interacial, etc...etc is just some names on how our brain fulfiling its fantasy. With "normal" relationship, many people will not experience this things (at least in my conservative, kampong, concept of sex) therefore they fulfil it trough pornography.
One thing that i found, and i felt worthy to write here, is pornography will never bring love. No matter how fulfilling those sex performer seems to 'show' us on those video at the end of the day its just something people do for making bucks and money. Most of those porn star, after having "grandeur" sex on screen will not go home with their sex partner on screen and start to share their feeling about life, expectation, and family life.
I notice some porn star partner end up marrying each other, but the ratio is not considered big enough for me to become the example.
Many porn star boast about how they can reach orgasm on their scene. As far as that concern i do believe that could happen. Our body has it own biological reaction toward sexual stimulation, like it or not. Its natural.
But the question is, does love come natural to those couple after performing sex scene to each other? I hardly can agree, to some very little couple might be, but not in general.
I've seen enough adult movie, forgive me God for that....but now i come to the conclusion that how good sex can be is all depends on how that sex can bring two people together as a FAMILY.
That is the reason God create sex, because i believe the result of sex MUST end up in a couple who are willing to share not only their body to each other, but their life, their love, their pain, their faith, and basically everything.
Without that result sex is meaningless.
Unfortunately pornography will never fulfill that, because that is not the purpose of pornography to begin with. Pornography were never meant to be the way couple can reach the true meaning of LOVE.
So how about those so called 'educational' sex video? Those therapeutic one? for that i cant give too much explanation but one thing that i know...watching other people having sex, will absolutely make you feel to have sex with your partner too. But before continue on, one question. Your desire to have sex is whehter because you know that you fall in love more with your partner or simply to fulfilling the psychological stimulation of the picture you saw?
another question, how about those so called 'amateur', those couple who make their personal 'sex video' and publish it on the internet? well, what is their motives of showing their video on screen? so other people can have the same happy relationship like they do? So why dont start from screening their whole daily life and not only their sex life? Are they good in bed only?

Please dont get me wrong, i never condemn any of those people who work in sex industry. If that is the way they can make any money. By all grace im not in any authority to condemn their behavior, knowing i used to support their 'work' by consuming it. But my question goes to all of us who under the spell the pornography.

This reflection is one of those reflection that i found very fulfiling for me and i hope it will stay that way.

What is the size of Your Shoes?

I just suddenly remember one of my teacher back at school. Dr.Kalervo Aromaki and his lesson.
that is one of the best class i ever took during my college time....

The lesson that i learn from that class will never be forgotten...

What is the size of your shoes?

I dont ask for the literal size of the shoe, but rather metaphorical one....

we often judge people from the shoe that we wear instead of those people's shoes.

what do i mean by that?

We often telling those who are fat to be slim but we never feel how does it mean by being fat

We often telling those who smokes from the point of view of someone who never addicted to cigarettes

We often telling those who are drinking to stop drinking while ourselves never know how much pain that people have as the reason they drink

Im not trying to say that you should be trying all those things before giving your thought for them but rather trying to see things from their point of view

If we want to counsel those people to stop smoking, try to see beyond that addiction and try to know what drives them to do so

if we want to counsel those people to stop drinking, try to see beyond their alcoholic behavior and see what triggers them to do so

Try to wear an addict shoes to know what what addict feel

try to wear some rape victim body to know how it feel to be raped

before you can do so, stop trying to convince people to stop their bad habit

I just share some flier this afternoon....
i observed people and i reflect on a question that nobody ask....

"how cold human hard can be?"

this afternoon that question has been answered.

I found that we as human, especially those who live in modern, first world country, has the coldest heart ever.

Despite all the comfort, beauty, and privileges that we have...its actually make our heart become colder. The more privilege, the more we become selfish.

I realize that the most coldest place, is at people who have more in life. I know this argument is not 100% but yet, i cannot deny also my own argument based on my experience.

People that accept my tract was basically those who appear less appealing. But those who wear more expensive clothes, not even look at me at all.


"i have everything in my life, why do i need to care about you?"

sadly this is the concept that affect many people......

Therefore i can say once again, that in this world there are only two religion, Materialism and Individualism

The place that i stay now is very hot, i was sweating profusely....

but i found that many heart of the people are freezing with no sense of love anymore....

How cold human heart can be? you can measure it here....at my place....

The Meaning of Service

Once again i need to write the beauty of service....

Service is one of the greatest treasure that most people nowaday take it for granted.
in the word where service is basically just part of business commodities, people are "expected" to give their service.
However, the best service actually are those which are given free
Because for every service, come sacrifice....